I think it's safe to say I'm slowly losing faith in humanity. I just can't seem to trust anyone... not that I was ever sure of trusting anyone in the first place... but it's just sad that even the slight glimmer of hope I've had is starting to fade. According to experienced beings, this is apparently life. I don't want to believe them but then maybe I'll forever be living in naivety.
When I talk to people my age, they tell me I'm jaded; when I talk to people older than me, they tell me I'm innocent. Perhaps I'm a bit of both. I guess this is another learning block in life and I have to deal with it but it's just such a sad realisation. All I want is genuineness. Is that too much to ask for? If I don't want to get played, I have to play the game... but do I even know how to play the game? It's just a massive headache. Why can't people be honest with and to each other? Honestly, what are you trying to accomplish in life? *sigh*
Sunday, December 16, 2012
Saturday, December 8, 2012
Re-Resurrection
I totally forgot that I even had this blog. My attempt at recording my daily shenanigans has been a complete fail. I suppose I can try to pick it up from where I last left off. Better late than never.
I've successfully completed my first year as a dental student. This year went by so fast (yet so slow) at the same time. I'm just happy I've got one year under my belt. Three more years to go. Actually, there's no point in me talking about my school life. It is what it is and professionalism must be maintained whether I like it or not.
In terms of everything else, I think I'm still in the process of mastering the art of action and reaction. Looking back, and as evidently stated in my previous posts, I was depressed for what it seemed like an eternity. I just didn't know how to cope with living alone in a foreign country, interacting with people on a strictly superficial level, accepting the fact that the love of my life isn't actually the love of my life (this was definitely the hardest), and trying to find people that I could connect with. About 5 months ago, I decided to do something I don't normally do... venture out of my comfort zone and live life... and slowly, I became happier. At first, I was reluctant because it felt like I was merely escaping from my mental torture without actually resolving the problems... and my approach to resolution is always targeting the root of the problem. But I thought if I had been unsuccessful for 7 months, why not try a different method? That's when I started to live life with a YOLO approach... as mindnumbingly dumb as that sounds. Life's all about learning anyway... and boy did I learn...
I'm actually extremely hungover right now and can't formulate proper sentences. I think I'll let my mind wander and come back to this thing later.
I've successfully completed my first year as a dental student. This year went by so fast (yet so slow) at the same time. I'm just happy I've got one year under my belt. Three more years to go. Actually, there's no point in me talking about my school life. It is what it is and professionalism must be maintained whether I like it or not.
In terms of everything else, I think I'm still in the process of mastering the art of action and reaction. Looking back, and as evidently stated in my previous posts, I was depressed for what it seemed like an eternity. I just didn't know how to cope with living alone in a foreign country, interacting with people on a strictly superficial level, accepting the fact that the love of my life isn't actually the love of my life (this was definitely the hardest), and trying to find people that I could connect with. About 5 months ago, I decided to do something I don't normally do... venture out of my comfort zone and live life... and slowly, I became happier. At first, I was reluctant because it felt like I was merely escaping from my mental torture without actually resolving the problems... and my approach to resolution is always targeting the root of the problem. But I thought if I had been unsuccessful for 7 months, why not try a different method? That's when I started to live life with a YOLO approach... as mindnumbingly dumb as that sounds. Life's all about learning anyway... and boy did I learn...
I'm actually extremely hungover right now and can't formulate proper sentences. I think I'll let my mind wander and come back to this thing later.
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