I unintentionally and almost innately take everything personally. It works against me more than it works for me. I often don't understand sarcasm, especially when used in a serious manner, and I get attached to things too easily. Over the years, I've been caring for those who do not care about me, based on the past promises made by these people. It makes you question whether the friendship that you shared was a lie, or even if there was some element of truth, how can you change into an unrecognizable person altogether? It's so awkward to see someone that was once your best friend, and all you can both do is carry out a typical greeting conversation, as if you two don't know each other. That is such bullshit.
I really struggled with this concept because I felt like everyone was living their life, moving forward, while I was waiting in the same spot, hoping they come back and fill the void. After a while, I have accepted the fact that friends become strangers over time, and those who do, were never my true friends in the first place, even though, at the time, I believed otherwise. This is why I'm really reluctant on opening my heart with people. Perhaps I've been sharing myself with the wrong people and maybe I take this meaning of friendship way too seriously.
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